Sunday, January 20, 2013

I cannot keep quiet about this

It has been nearly 40 years since the Roe v Wade decision to legalize abortion.  I am going to apologize if you find this post offensive, but as I am 6 months pregnant it is safe to say that I am PRO-LIFE.  There is no justification for taking a life.  We put murders behind bars, we execute murders, but why is is we let mothers take the lives of their unborn children.  There is no right reasoning for abortion.  I realize that the pregnancy may not be convenient, it came about because of a crime (rape) or one was not careful.  In China women abort little girls because they are girls.  I know too many families that are unable to have their own natural children and adopt.  Babies are highly sought after for adoption because parents want children from birth.  Rape sucks, I know from personal experience and if a child had resulted because of tho crime against me, I would have carried the child to term and put them up for adoption if I felt I was unable to care for the child.  Babies are miracles!!!!
Before the birth of our first daughter Alexis, my husband and I tried unsuccessfully for 1 year to even have a baby.  Come to find out I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome commonly referred to as PCOS.  The causes of PCOS are still unknown.  PCOS is linked to problems with ovulation.  Once I was diagnosed with PCOS the doctors were able to put me on a fertility track.  I had to take the medication Metformin ER for a few months to stabilize hormone levels and then I was given Clomid to stimulate ovulation.  It took 6 months of experimenting with the appropriate level of Clomid to take and 5 months of disappointment for lack of a successful implantation of an embryo.  We were finally blessed on the 6 round with the confirmed pregnancy of our daughter Alexis.  I was offered tests for genetic problems.  To see if I wanted to continue the pregnancy.  I declined because this pregnancy was God's gift to my husband and me.  God made this miracle and my job as a mother is to protect my children and provide and care for them to the best of my ability.
Earlier in 2012 my husband and I embarked on the fertility process once again.  We got pregnant on the first round of fertility.  We were elated.  I found out Easter morning that we were pregnant once again.  It was about a week later that I just did not feel pregnant anymore and on Wednesday April 18 at about 8 pm, I lost the baby.  We rushed to the ER and it was confirmed that I had lost the baby.  We were devastated.  I had already told some family and friends that I was pregnant and now I had to let them know I lost the baby.
We waited the three months and with great hesitation tried again.  This time it took 2 rounds before success.  I want you to know that this pregnancy has been filled with concern.  I emailed my doctor daily and was petrified until about the 20 week mark when I could finally feel her move.  I still worry especially if I do not feel her move for awhile.   When they brought me in a 6 weeks for an ultrasound, we were not able to see the heart beat at that time.  STRESSFUL!!!  I had to come back in tow weeks.  Sure enough there she was, our gift from God with a strong Heartbeat in the 140 range.  The growth that had happened in just two weeks was astounding.  At first all we could really see was the Yolk sack and at 8 weeks, her body with arm and leg buds and her head. You cannot tell me that a baby at 6 even 8 weeks is not a person.  Apparently this little girl is going to have a bit of a stubborn streak in her because at 12 weeks she decided to hid for the fetal doppler under my pelvic bone, forcing another ultrasound for her heart beat, which was 178!!!   I have my own personal fetal doppler and could not find her till about 14 weeks. Finally at 18 weeks we found out Alexis was going to have a sister.
Please protect babies and give them a chance at a normal, exciting future.  If the time is not right for you let them live and become apart of a family that will give them world.


 6 week ultrasound.  Here you can see the yolk sack.
 8 week ultrasound. Here you can see arm and leg buds, head and heart beat.

 12 week ultrasound.
 18 week ultrasound.

5 comments:

  1. Thank you for sharing your story. I have been trying to get pregnant for two years. It's inspirational to read that you were able to overcome your medical difficulties and give birth to a red haired little cutie.

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    1. I am not going to lie, it was not an easy story to tell. I believe that I have been through theses experiences to help other find confidence and encouragement. I truly believe that it is never too late to have a miracle and will pray that you get yours soon.

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  2. Katie I really enjoyed reading this post, and I totally agree with you! Sorry to hear about the baby you lost but be encouraged, I believe that the baby is now in heaven and you will see her again. God is the One who opens up the womb and Children are truly a gift and a heritage from Him.

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    1. Thank you so much. I do know that our lost angel I will one day meet again in Heaven. That little Angel is up there watching over us and is in GREAT HANDS. :)

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  3. No apologies necessary, you are completely entitled to your opinion. This morning turning into my driveway I almost ran over a bird. I felt so guilty about that. As a matter of fact, I still feel pretty guilty about it :(. I personally couldn’t ever see myself getting an abortion. Even in a pregnancy of inconvenience. Good posts, keep it up.

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