Before the birth of our first daughter Alexis, my husband and I tried unsuccessfully for 1 year to even have a baby. Come to find out I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome commonly referred to as PCOS. The causes of PCOS are still unknown. PCOS is linked to problems with ovulation. Once I was diagnosed with PCOS the doctors were able to put me on a fertility track. I had to take the medication Metformin ER for a few months to stabilize hormone levels and then I was given Clomid to stimulate ovulation. It took 6 months of experimenting with the appropriate level of Clomid to take and 5 months of disappointment for lack of a successful implantation of an embryo. We were finally blessed on the 6 round with the confirmed pregnancy of our daughter Alexis. I was offered tests for genetic problems. To see if I wanted to continue the pregnancy. I declined because this pregnancy was God's gift to my husband and me. God made this miracle and my job as a mother is to protect my children and provide and care for them to the best of my ability.
Earlier in 2012 my husband and I embarked on the fertility process once again. We got pregnant on the first round of fertility. We were elated. I found out Easter morning that we were pregnant once again. It was about a week later that I just did not feel pregnant anymore and on Wednesday April 18 at about 8 pm, I lost the baby. We rushed to the ER and it was confirmed that I had lost the baby. We were devastated. I had already told some family and friends that I was pregnant and now I had to let them know I lost the baby.
We waited the three months and with great hesitation tried again. This time it took 2 rounds before success. I want you to know that this pregnancy has been filled with concern. I emailed my doctor daily and was petrified until about the 20 week mark when I could finally feel her move. I still worry especially if I do not feel her move for awhile. When they brought me in a 6 weeks for an ultrasound, we were not able to see the heart beat at that time. STRESSFUL!!! I had to come back in tow weeks. Sure enough there she was, our gift from God with a strong Heartbeat in the 140 range. The growth that had happened in just two weeks was astounding. At first all we could really see was the Yolk sack and at 8 weeks, her body with arm and leg buds and her head. You cannot tell me that a baby at 6 even 8 weeks is not a person. Apparently this little girl is going to have a bit of a stubborn streak in her because at 12 weeks she decided to hid for the fetal doppler under my pelvic bone, forcing another ultrasound for her heart beat, which was 178!!! I have my own personal fetal doppler and could not find her till about 14 weeks. Finally at 18 weeks we found out Alexis was going to have a sister.
Please protect babies and give them a chance at a normal, exciting future. If the time is not right for you let them live and become apart of a family that will give them world.




Thank you for sharing your story. I have been trying to get pregnant for two years. It's inspirational to read that you were able to overcome your medical difficulties and give birth to a red haired little cutie.
ReplyDeleteI am not going to lie, it was not an easy story to tell. I believe that I have been through theses experiences to help other find confidence and encouragement. I truly believe that it is never too late to have a miracle and will pray that you get yours soon.
DeleteKatie I really enjoyed reading this post, and I totally agree with you! Sorry to hear about the baby you lost but be encouraged, I believe that the baby is now in heaven and you will see her again. God is the One who opens up the womb and Children are truly a gift and a heritage from Him.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I do know that our lost angel I will one day meet again in Heaven. That little Angel is up there watching over us and is in GREAT HANDS. :)
DeleteNo apologies necessary, you are completely entitled to your opinion. This morning turning into my driveway I almost ran over a bird. I felt so guilty about that. As a matter of fact, I still feel pretty guilty about it :(. I personally couldn’t ever see myself getting an abortion. Even in a pregnancy of inconvenience. Good posts, keep it up.
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